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Monday 30 September 2013

Day 29 & 30 : putting everything into perspective.


In what we call the universe,
I am just a speck.

So small.



But even though, 
I am not that big.

Not that noticeable.


I am not insignificant.

Because,
Every single speck has its purpose.


After all,

That huge universe is just made of specks...



like me. 








Saturday 28 September 2013

Day 28 : desperate





Desperation is a powerful thing.

It can be empowering and more often...

Crippling.

Today,
I guess I got to witness a kind of desperation.

It was a strange sight.

Something that could be taken as mockery for those watching,
but not those experiencing.


Being desperate is indeed painful.
But I rather be desperate for something, and strive.
Than to be fearful to even try.

Friday 27 September 2013

Day 27 : past


One of those nights,
scrolling through past pictures.

Nostalgic.

To know how I got here,
is to acknowledge where I came from.
To know who I am,
is to remember who made me.





My family looks like one of those kung-fu movie posters.



HAHAHAHA







Thursday 26 September 2013

Day 26 : different


Nobody likes to be left out.

But sometimes,

You just got to learn to accept your difference.


Maybe it isn't so bad.


" Why are you trying so hard to fit in,
   When you were born to stand out."

Wednesday 25 September 2013

Day 25 : my little leap of faith




I have so much on my mind.


And for once,
I cant really put it into words.


But God,
I'm sure you already know.


So..

I'm just going to thank you in advance.
Amen. 




Tuesday 24 September 2013

Day 24 : Swings


Remember the swings at reservoir park.

The one in the playground surrounded by sandflies.

The swings were small tiny ones,
that would swing straight into the forest.



We use to sit on it.


Sometimes we would fight to see who could get there first.
I'm not sure if you can remember, but I always won.



We went there a lot together.




I miss those times.

When we had nothing on our shoulders.

Nothing but faith.


A beautiful sense of Freedom


Cos we knew no matter how scary the swings were,

They creaked, 
Had no seatbelt,
And would swing directly into the direction of a huge dark pit...

We knew that we wouldn't fall. 

I had you and you had me.



I want you to know.

That even though your exams seem impossible.
Your results seem like that dark pit.
And you find stress slowly becoming a daily routine..


Just like those tiny tadpoles we saw by the park,
You'll survive.

Because the little girl I used to push on the swing,
She was afraid of nothing.
Despite the creaking of the swings.
She just wanted to go higher.


And even though that little girl isn't so little anymore,
I know deep down she's still the same.

Fearless. 
Faithfull.
Free.



Pris,
Don't be scared of what is to come.
They look really scary,
But they're not.
I've sat on them before.


Cheche will be behind you all the way.
I stood behind you since young,
Pushing you on the swings.
And I promise you,
This time round...
I'll make sure you soar.




Monday 23 September 2013

Day 23 : insecurities


They tell you you're chubby,
They say your size determines your worth.
So you stop eating,
All the food here on earth.
You spends lots of money,
Chasing all the trends.
But they don't seem to notice.
So the cycle never ends.


You look in the mirror,
And it's not beauty that you see.
The media has influenced you,
To see flaws that shouldn't be.
Instead of a pair of eyes,
that see perfectly;
You wonder why you eyelids,
Aren't perfect symmetry.


You scroll through your news feed,
You think mockery is so cool.
"He's fat! She's ugly"
My dear,
You really are the fool.
If you think that judging others,
Is something you can do.
Please be aware,
There are millions prettier (handsomer) than you.


Take your insecurities,
And learn to wear it with pride.
Have a different take on life,
And realise there's nothing really to hide.
Your imperfections may be prominent,
But you're still lucky to be alive.



Sunday 22 September 2013

Day 22 : have you ever laughed till you cried.

Being funny really is a gift.

I stumbled upon a YouTube comedian that has managed to take up about 22 hours of my day.

*sighhh*

He is THAT funny.

David So is an American-born-Korean comedian / singer.

Okay.
His use of language is slightly "colourful", but if you can look past that he really does have some words of wisdom.
From issues of racism, to diets and his take on being fat...


"Do you know what's great about being fat?"




Check him out on YouTube.

Davidsocomedy

Davidsomusic

Saturday 21 September 2013

Day 21 : Hidden talent

I am so sorry.

Didn't have time to blog today.

But hey!

Check out the new talent I found.


My beloved brother's self portrait.



See. 

Everyone has talent.

Just needa dig deep....


Or get stuck on a train for an hour.
You'll discover something.

Friday 20 September 2013

Day 20 : I am


I am more than a name.


I am not just my past.


I am beyond just fate.


I am me.

I am.



Thursday 19 September 2013

Wednesday 18 September 2013

Day 18 : friends


Mooncake.

Funny how this round thing succeeds in bringing people together.

Friends. Family. Even strangers.

Today, 

I really wanna honour the friends I have in my life,
and to thank them for having me be a part of theirs.

May our friendship be like mooncake.

A hard solid structure filled with all the love and gooey-ness inside.


May our friendship, just like mooncake, be something to celebrate.



Happy mooncake festival in advance.




Sincerely,
Friend.

Tuesday 17 September 2013

Day 17 : voices

You know you should....
You must....
I think you can do this...
It would be good if you...
Maybe you should...




Voices.

There are many voices.


Good. Bad. 



But sometimes you need to stop the voices.
So you can hear the voice within.







Listen to what is within.
For what is within will flow out of you.
It is not from the outside-in.
But everything first begins on the inside.

Monday 16 September 2013

Day 16 : Tanahair ku ( my land, my home)


I never thought my country's flag was aesthetically great.



The colours don't even match.

But now.
I see beyond the weird mix of colours.


That flag is the most beautiful flag of all the flags in the world,
Simply because that flag is me.


I too,
may not be the best colours put together...
I have my tempers.
My unglamorous moments.
My flaws.

But I am me.

I was made this way.
And I was born to a beautiful country.
A country with a flag of weird colours.



I am Malaysian.
The weird colours and all.



Happy Malaysia Day.


Sunday 15 September 2013

Day 15 : To a special part of me



I remember the day before you left to New Zealand when we were 12.

I had gone over to your place,
We were getting our nails done.

By you.

I never liked getting my nails painted.
But for you, I gladly obliged
.

It was a turquoise blue.



After you were done,
I remember promising myself that I'd never wash it off.

Never.


At 12, 
Goodbyes were something a little difficult to understand.
I had already spent my entire life with you.
You were a part of my daily routine.

No.
You were a part of me.

But I knew,
Somewhere deep down.

That no matter how far you were going...

I'd never leave you.




8 years down the road,
You're turning 20.

We have been through a lot.

We have been apart a lot too.


But I'd like you to know,

I'll paint my nails turquoise for you.
And I'll make the same promise.


I'll never leave you.


Happy Birthday buddy.
I loved you since the day I took your colour pencils.



Saturday 14 September 2013

Friday 13 September 2013

Day 13 : Friday the 13th

Today, I watched a classic Disney cartoon.

The Sword in Stone ( 1963)

I realised what I love so much about old school cartoon.

It's not just the surreal-ness of it all.

One moment, you can be in the Milky Way..


The next,
A field of endless daisies.



Everything is possible in a cartoon. 


But what I love is how the good guy always wins.

Despite whatever circumstance they are in, their faith is amazing.
They know that despite everything, as long they remain righteous...

Things will work out.



Amazing how I got that from a children's cartoon.

Well, that's why child-like faith is so precious.






Thursday 12 September 2013

Day 12 : words of encouragement

Two of my biggest support systems in the world.

Mum and dad.



Thank you for encouraging me when I need it the most.

For hearing me out and for being my comfort.


I love you mummy and daddy.

Wednesday 11 September 2013

Day 11 : unaware

Sometimes, it's good to stop trying so hard.

Just let loose.





Drawings were made without even looking at the screen initially.


Probably some of my best works were made when I was unaware.





Tuesday 10 September 2013

Day 10 : Swimming upstream


You know that uncomfortable feeling...

Like you can't breathe.
Like you're choking.


I feel that sometime.
I'm sure we all do.


But with a little love and support...

The little fishy is going to learn to breathe again.
To cope with the pressure.
To swim upstream.

The best fishes go through difficulty...


A.k.a.

Salmon.

Monday 9 September 2013

Day 9 : chaos

I like things to be in order.

I like to be in control.

I like things to be in the line.

But sometimes.

It's okay to not be in the line.


To not be in control.


In the chaos,

I learn to trust.

To trust in someone much greater than me.



Sunday 8 September 2013

Day 8 : what I expected

I was told that as long I was good,
My life would be great.

I was promised a life of colour. 

Where I would grow. 


But I realised that...


But often we end up with this...


Not because we weren't good.
But because it is through the mess, that we learn to appreciate the colours.


Friday 6 September 2013

Day 7 : happy

If I am what I eat....


I am happy.

Day 6 : huff and puff

Now...


Well.


There's the satisfaction of knowing that we can be in control.
Control of the way we look, the way our body functions.
It's the satisfaction of knowing that despite all the pain and soreness,
You made it.

It's a feeling of accomplishment.
Pushing yourself to limits.
You feel stronger, 
Better.

The things you thought you couldn't do.
The weight you thought you couldn't lose.
The strength you thought you couldn't have.

You try.
Hard.
And you realise...
You can.


So.
Don't ever say you can't...
If you never bothered trying.

Wednesday 4 September 2013

Day 4 : A 'agsfhkagmnfsffssgklh' kind of day.

Face it.

We've all had...


Well.

When the world seems to hate you 
and nothing ever goes right.
You gotta pick yourself up,
And believe things will be alright.

Because,

As much as all this,
may seem to kill your drive..
You gotta realise,
You're really lucky to be alive. 



Tuesday 3 September 2013

Day 3 : innovation of loneliness



Why are there lonely people.... 

Especially when the whole world is trying to create mechanisms to help us connect. 


Well,
We end up trading relationships for mere connection.

Sadly,
A million friends on Facebook ain't gonna save you.

#loneliness

Sunday 1 September 2013

Day 2 : Nothing-ness




Time management.

Something I'd like to improve over the 40 days. 

Day 1 : Father's Day




To the man that can draw a straight line with his eyes close,
The man who claims he can cook chicken rice, but I have yet to taste it.. 
The man who wins best dressed at countless functions,
The man who can skilfully clean the fish pond.
Happy 'Australian' Father's Daddy. 

Im sorry but you don't get a lovey dovey poem because this is your second Father's Day. 

To all Fathers in Australia ( and anywhere really)... Happy Father's Day.

And daddy. Remember how you always tell me that it's not by our strength that we receive blessings. I think I get it... Because there is nothing in this world that I could've possible done to deserve a dad as great as you.